Monday morning blues

Its Saturday. Its my birthday & I have the Monday morning blues.

To be honest I don’t do the birthday thing in a big way; to be really honest I don’t really do the birthday thing full stop!

Not that I’m miserable. Well I am sometimes! I just can’t get into this whole celebrating getting closer to having less mobility, failing eyesight & various other complains.

Yep I have shed loads to be grateful for and lots to look forward to but I also have some really crap birthday memories. My birthday birthday cards simply serve to remind me of those crap times and makes me feel reflective for family and friends that are no longer with us.

A couple of days ago we (her in doors & I) talked very briefly about having a long weekend in Venice but the closest we got to that today was walking over a bridge crossing Little Venice canal in London.

So, today I woke up too early to get up but managed to snooze off again. Thinking I’d have a lay in but some builders put and end to that.

I thought I might get breakfast in bed but didn’t even get a cup of tea in bed. That said when I am off on a Sunday I do normally get spoiled with a brew and breakfast so its not a big deal.

“I was going to do scrambled eggs & salmon for breakfast but the salmon is out of date”. I didn’t get the french toast I was offered after the disappointment of not having breakfast in bed and not having the scrambled eggs & salmon. Instead I had a banana at 13:30. Yarp! My birthday breakfast was a banana at 13:30 hrs.

Anyhow I’m not really that fussed about a bit of breakfast.  When I got up I decided to make a twin lens camera that I bought some time ago. Unusually for a bloke I opted to follow the instructions and an hour later I had a twin lens camera… NO FILM INCLUDED!!!

Aarrggggh!  It was like one of those Christmas moments when parents are out trudging the streets trying to find batteries for kids toys.

Actually have you tried asking youngsters for anything thats not digital?! “Camera Film” repeated at me with the blankest looks you could ever fecking imagine. Yes, film that you put in a camera you fecking dim-witted ‘generation Y’ waste of fecking space!!!! Obviously that wasn’t my response and I’ve typed that just for effect in highlighting how frustrating it is living with people that know nothing of the analog life we once lived.

I can’t say that the late lunch was particularly good, its repeating, I feel bloated and uncomfortable. Maybe I should have just had another banana?

I did however find some film and took a few shots with this camera that I put together but I don’t hold out much hope for them being anything worth posting. We’ll see, it may be a pleasant surprise.



Its early evening now and with the exception of a couple of cards and a few extra texts from nephews and nieces its been just another day….  Just the way I like it.

One of my sisters and a niece seem to think we might have a big celebration for my 50th… its a few years off yet but I managed to get through my 18th, 21st and 40th without a big fuss so I see no reason why I should change a habit of a life time.

Doubt I’m gonna shake off the Monday morning blues so I might have an early night.



  1. The complete opposite to my birthdays! Embrace the day! Plan ahead. Go to the seaside, and eat somewhere nice later that night. A banana and a Lubitel copy is NOT how to do birthdays!
    Anyway, it’s 22:30, so you only have 90 minutes left. But a belated Happy Birthday nonetheless. And many more. (Maybe it’s the 1st of April thing?)
    Best wishes, old friend. I will look forward to the rollfilm shots. Pete.

      1. Nicely taken photo Ian. I’m not entirely sure mine are going to come out so well. First off I don’t think the shutter is operating properly. Secondly I opted for ISO 400 film and I’m thinking perhaps I should have gone for the Ilford 125. Thirdly, camera shake and by no means lastly… I didn’t realise how much I relied on autofocus. I have to say though I am really looking forward to getting the film developed.

      2. I’m sure you’ll be fine. I think I had 400ISO film so you should be OK. That’s what film latitude is all about.

        Camera shake was an issue for me. I found it difficult with such a light camera to keep it still while firing the shutter. Luckily, what movement there was seemed to be a rotation around the axis of the taking lens so most of the blue is around the edges, which are pretty blurry anyway due to the rather rubbish lens. It’s best just to accept it for what it is, I think.

        I have up with the focus in the end, it never seemed to make much difference.

        The shutter is really simple so it should be OK.

        I look forward to seeing the results some time

        Take Care

      3. I have to say that I’m expecting a load of old rubbish. To be honest I’m not entirely sure I have been winding the film on enough but I’m really looking forward to seeing the results.

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